Amanda you still there?

still looking forward to the day i can see Amanda face to face. but i am not going to pressure her in to coming to see me. it might be a while yet till i see her. but i know she is worth waiting for. all i know is it is unrealistic in going to see her. that is the sad part. since my illness will prevent me from saving the money required to go there and getting a hotel and then going too and fro there.

but last i heard she was saving to see me. but i have not really heard much else from her since. hopefully she still is eager to see me. unless she has found someone new and has failed to tell me. but i doubt that.

news? not much.

so, i now know that i will be returning to SAC and i will be having another evaluation once i get there.  as it has been over 10 years since i last had one.  but i know that if all goes well, i should have a reason to get out of the house. with CJ fully out of the picture, (now that she is married,) i now have nothing to worry about.

as for amanda i am not sure when i will be seeing her face to face. as we only corsponded a few times in the last 4 months,  but i am hopeing that i get to see her soon.

 as for CFK i know i will not have another chance.  since CFK went belly up.


other than that i have nothing new to report.