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There are 2 kinds of true prophets

those who know the future and those who hear Gods words.  the plans of the enemy are reviled to the right people can in fact make things worse for him. AND CAN MAKE HIM DOCILE.

Even though i knew that Trump would become President i thought i heard it from God. but i had a vision of the future. and i put 2 and 2 together. i made a promise that if trump would become president i would move out of my current home. because i saw that i was living in martensville when i am killed i also know i would be living in Martensville anyway. because i saw the overpass that they will be building in Martensville before i even knew that was a vision of the future.

i also was not a Trump supporter until i heard his stance on corruption.

things are moving ever faster and more swiftly.

things are also becoming harder to keep a lid on.

sure i am Islamophobic. i don't like Islam, i don't like what some of them DO like cut off your head if you appose them. but if my dream and vision comes true, i will be killed by an illegal alien not Islam.

but the thugs i saw taking over Saskatoon.

are already here. they are Muslims!

i am also living closer to a mosque then i do a church. and that scares me most.

 i also feel i will miss the rapture. because i have this urge to SIN!  it is like he wants me to sin. and miss the boat.

 i know who TS stands for. in Saskatoon it is the Jihadists that have taken over this city. so i need to move to the nearest city to Saskatoon or i will be taken with this city.

that just happens to be Martensville.

the prophcy reveiled.

the second message is no longer time sensitive and is now open to see. the code word is "martensville"

HERE IS THE 2 CODED MESSAGES.

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AND THIS

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translate to this

I have been given sight of the future. i have been given an ultimatum of what i
should do. If trump becomes president i am to move out of the house that i am
currently in because it is his will for my future. as things will only go down
hill for me there.

i am guessing that he will become president at this time. but i do not doubt it.
 i will be living in Martensville by the time the overpass is built in
Martensville.

Saskatoon will be no more by the time i have moved out of there. since i have
seen it's demise.  i also know that it will also be over run by thugs.


AND THIS

Just then he says that you will have visions,  i know that it cannot be given
until i am living in martensville. i also know that if i leave things untouched.
i refuse to die a copy.  the need to be normal have left me long ago.  but since
i know that others feel that i am having a phycotic episode. i know that it is
not true. i have been wronged by satan long enough. 

TRUMP will become USA's last hope for redemption.  Hillary is working for the
devil. she has been working with the demonic ever since she had been communing
with him. when she was 17. she has been given a promise. she will become
president. but not at the time she wanted to though. but when the life of trump
has been taken. by satan himself.  she will rise to power. no sooner nor later.

all i know at this time is that i will not be here when she comes into power.

it's final.

i am moving. it is not a maybe any more. i mailed my move form and gave my notice.

the first code word is. "vesper" to the first encrypted message. but the second is still time sensitive.

you can find the site at

http://www.bagill.com/text-encrypt.php

if you are curious.

Will She ever forgive me?

i screwed up. i had some one special in my life and i let it slip through my fingers yet again. because i had someone else that i could not let go of in my life haunt me. and this baggage was not healthy. even though it was because i had an unhealthy attitude towards Her i could not let go. and i know why. it had something to do with my brain. when ever i thought of CJ my brain would go into a logic loop. that i found out was a part of an epileptic condition that i would actually lose consciousnesses for a noticeable period of time. and i figured it out when Crystal would "wake" me from such a time frame where i thought only 3 seconds passed. and it was actually 2 minutes.

in computers when a logic loop happens if there is nothing there to break the loop the computer will literary freeze. until the thing that is programed to break the loop breaks it. in my case it is a drug that i now put under my tongue at bed times. not only am i now able to stop thinking about CJ i can also break and notice that old logic loop i was in when ever it happens.

so where did i screw up?

i thought that Amanda would be in my future. because i saw her in a dream i had. but she stopped talking to me. all because i felt that the relationship was stagnate.

in truth, i broke a promise to her.

and for that i am sorry.

but i cannot wait forever. and i was waiting for her, because i had put myself into a logic loop. one i could not break out of until recently.

if i put myself back into a logic loop i will be stepping backwards. I will not be able to get out of it if i put myself back into one. so i refuse to do so. unless she starts talking to me again. then i will make sure that it is not in vain.

i may be moving...

the final step in my process is all i have to make before i am able to make the move. and that is to give my notice.

where am i moving to? back to my home town of martensville. i am going to rent a room in my friend's house.

since martensville is now a city it may or may not be hard to find a job there. but i was told i would be given $950 from SAID. a month.

it's not as much as i was hoping, but i think i can make it work.

Amanda, if you still care, contact me.

i saw your visit recently, and it got me thinking. there is a part that still cares and i know that it is not all lost. for better or worst even includes dry spells. even if it is mutual.

Yep. that was odd of me. but who ever asked for normal.

so what is with the 2 coded entries that happened on thanksgiving? it just that i know that what is discussed in those entries are in fact time sensitive visions i had the night before. i will give the code word i used to encrypt them when the time is right. and i know that if i reveal them before 2017 i will regret it.

so just to be sure that i have in fact stumbled upon time sensitive info it will not be edited and will be revieled at the proper time. i will give both the code word and the site i used to encrypt them at the proper time in the comments of the given messages.

here come's the SON, DOOBY DOOBY

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About the future.

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Amanda... I still care! but i know it's not forever anymore.

i think she has moved on from me, since i no longer see her visiting my blog. but then again i do not see anyone visiting my blog.  maybe my statcounter code is no longer working. i know that blogger is now using HTTPS instead of HTTP. and my statcounter code i do not think uses HTTPS. but anyway. i am now, for the first time in 14 years, unsure about my future. i thought that by this time Amanda and I would of been expecting Gwen by now. but God now has other plans for our future.

Mainly mine.  i have been selfish lately and now i am reaping the rewards of that selfishness. but i know it has something to do with the idea that she has to compete with someone who does not even give me the time of day.  and of course i am talking about CJ. that was my problem. i would not shut up about CJ and i think that is what hurt our relationship more than anything.

even if Amanda never again sends me a message, try's to contact me or in no way shows me an interest in my life i know now why that is.

i just had an idea. maybe Amanda was the relationship that was prophesied when i was 17. if that was true then who was CJ in my life?

for Amanda to just lose interest in me is a hard pill to swallow. especially since i have been in her life for more than 10 years.  maybe she found someone better than me.  it's not hard.  there are a lot of better guys out there. but that is something i have never been was competitive.

that is why i am now going to test the waters. if there is an Actual girl out there  that likes me and will stick by my side "forever" then i know i have found the right one.  because now i am openly going to see if i can find that Blond from my dream that i had a few days ago. but the only catch is, she has to come to me. i am sick of looking and having them doing nothing in return.

Dreams and Realities.

if your given a dream about the future. and you keep it to your self, you will have to realize it will come to pass regardless. i have had a dream about a blond i had never seen before. she was beautiful, she was also scary, something in my mind told me to avoid her. in this dream she started chasing me, even though i never saw her before, she reminded me of a girl i once knew who's name was Alia. but this was not Alia.

just then yesterday and today i saw this drop dead beautiful blond bombshell on the bus. going to work. but it was not the girl in the dream. even so,  this girl on the bus. i think i crept her out. so unless she makes the first move, i am going to leave her well enough alone.

on a side note, i started working again this week. and i found it easy to cope with the challenges that they gave me so far. i have been given good reviews to my Job coach from the employer so far. but on that last day this week i found that all that confidence went to my head as i put a decal on a slate wrong. but even though i made the mistake as long as i am enjoying the job, i will do it well.

Speaking of dreams.

i had one a few days ago. it was about Amanda. in the dream she had landed in Saskatchewan and i was in Moose Jaw when she called collect to say that she was in Saskatchewan. and my family did not like the fact she called collect. i said that i would be there shortly to pick her up from the airport. when i got disconnected from her. only to realize i was in Martensville. and i did not know what airport in Saskatchewan she was in. so we traveled to the nearest airport. which was in Saskatoon only to realize that she might of been in Moose Jaw or Regina. knowing that it would take more than 4 hours to reach the right airport i then woke up.

broken heart?

i think i already broke her heart. i did not want to because she has waited and waited for me and then she put 2 and 2 together. but i know what it is like to have your heart broken then trampled on and spit on then insulted then left out to dry. i never wanted to do that to another human being but i think i already did that to Amanda.

she just did not want to tell me that i already did that to her.

had i known that "i will never break your heart" is code for i want to break up with you but i don't want it to get ugly. i would never of made that promise. i miss the late night talks we used to have when all i could think of was getting back to Saskatoon and trying to patch things up with CJ when deep down inside i knew that we never had a chance. because of the prophecy i was given when i was 17.  i wanted that prophecy to run it's coarse and i also wanted the promise at the end of that promise to come true.  the next girl i was to fall madly in love with would fall madly in love with me.   Amanda's response to that promise should of clued me in that she was ending the relationship. by just stop talking to me.

our relationship started when she lost her mother.  i wanted to be there when she lost her father.  she did not come to me when it happened so i know now she is the one who is ending the relationship.  "she will never break my heart."

i had 5 conditions that CJ had to meet before i knew it was true. and that it was time to fall in love with someone new. and when CJ met the 5 conditions i feel that is when i lost Amanda.

i think the damage is done.

irreverseable? i hope not. but i think we again are on rocky ground.we have not been talking lately. it seems i have to wait atleast 2 - 3 weeks before i get a responce from her.

 i have seen this before. just before the woman dumps me.

i refuse to accept the fact that it may be over between us but i also have to count the chickens that have already hatched and have grown into full fledged hens.

Amanda does not talk to me anymore.

might it have something to do with the post about CJ i recently posted?

or is she super busy in her life and does not have time to contact me?

come September i will not have the time i once did and do. as my work experience program starts.

if the case is true that she is too busy to talk then i know i am not worth the time that i spent waiting and things have gotten sour enough to spit them out

The dream.

I had a disturbing dream yesterday afternoon. one that i could not shake. yes i said dream. not a vision or a revelation but a dream.

because i am in a time of my  life where anything goes and i am flying blind for the first time in 20 years i cannot see if i should pursue this "dream" but i know that if Amanda hates me after i Reveal this dream, that i then know what i must do.

because my sleeping patterens have been all wonky lately i have had a few disturbing dreams but the one i had last is what is keeping me awake.

you see i apparently i am consciously over CJ but there is a part of me that is not. i am guessing that is why i never am fully over her.  i have been fighting this feeling ever since i found out that she was married.  but yesterday afternoon it manifested into a dream. of her phoning me.

the dream had the usual public sightings of her that turned into her later that day phoning me.  in the dream as soon as i knew who i was talking to i hung up. but that is not where the dream ended. but it is the part i remembered most.  because it is what i always craved most.

and that is...

to have never of known her in the first place.  so i could shake her from my mind for once and for all.

Stoked to the 1st degree

Super Stoked right now.  

last weekend i told my mom that i was going to save up for a new laptop to replace the lemon that i bought back in January never again am i going to pay for a cheap and flimsy laptop from "The Source" and i am also going to steer away from Acer laptops. so last Sunday before i went home after our weekly game night at David's, Robert and I payed my mom a visit where i told her this.

she agreed to pay for a new laptop and i would pay her back for the next 2 years. the only catch is i was not to buy a cheep laptop that would "die" in a few months like the last one did and  it should also get a warranty with it.

so on Monday morning i placed an order for this laptop on OTV's website. it was a little bit of a  disappointment on my behalf, because they did not update their website when i made the request. so thinking that they still had one in stock i made the online reservation only to phone them to find out that they had already sold it.

so "what am i so stoked about?" you might ask. i am getting to that.

so my mother and i went to OTV and made a down payment of $1000 ($900 of witch i still owe her for, as i already paid her $100 of which i already had saved up.) on a new laptop to be ordered in.

and just a few hours ago i got the phone call that it was in. that is what i am stoked about. so either tomorrow or Friday i am going to get it. since my mom is going to make the final payment and i am going to get it from her. on either day since she is the one who is paying for it i have to wait on her..

Internet radio

so i opened my internet radio a few days ago but i have not much playing on it. mainly because i have not had it up and running all that much.

on it i have been playing modfiles, and that's it. just modfiles.

it may sound boring but there are some really good mod files out there. some that even surpass mp3's IMO.

if you want to listen all you have to do is point to http://radio.slother3x.info where i have setup a player so you can listen to it

otherwise open up shoutcast and look for "slother3x"

Slother3x's Station

i started my first internet radio station. you can listen to it on shoutcast. just do a search for Slother3x and you will find it.

or you can visit my website for a direct link to the player that i spent all night getting to work.

all i am playing right now is music i got from http://modarchive.org/

i am also thinking of adding my SNES music archive i got from http://snesmusic.org/v2/
 aswell

an update

Still looking forward to the day i can give Amanda A big hug and never let her go it has been awhile since i heard from her. but i know we will talk once something new happens in our lives. Carl and i have patched up our rocky relationship but apparently i have to rebuild trust with him. it is just that vise versa is also true. anyway you look at it it will live another day.