Things are going well for me now.
just upgraded all my computers to windows 10 and was given the OK to walk without the knee immobilizer that i have been walking with.
even though i have been without the hallucinations for awhile i had one when i was at the hospital getting my x-ray on my leg.
it may just be that i may never be able to rid my self of them, but i know that if i ever do, i will be happier than i am right now.
Friday, July 31, 2015
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
God where are you in my life?
i need him more than anything yet like others i love i have been pushing him away by thinking i have been without praise and worship.
i know i have angered him yet i know not what to do, from this point on.
i feel empty and i have felt this way for awhile now. not knowing why.
it has been awhile since i blogged last. and i was on top of my 'game' then but even then the depletion had started.
things are happening faster then expected. and i am running out of time. but so is everyone else.
there is not much more i can do or say. but to let things flow.
i have been a spectator for far too long. i think it is time to get back into the game.
i know i have angered him yet i know not what to do, from this point on.
i feel empty and i have felt this way for awhile now. not knowing why.
it has been awhile since i blogged last. and i was on top of my 'game' then but even then the depletion had started.
things are happening faster then expected. and i am running out of time. but so is everyone else.
there is not much more i can do or say. but to let things flow.
i have been a spectator for far too long. i think it is time to get back into the game.
Monday, July 6, 2015
news
you may or may not remember me talking about my grandmother. who insulted me at Christmas, 2 years ago. she passed away 2 days ago. i should feel sad but i don't because something great over shadowed that news. Amanda is in the consideration phase of coming to see me some time in early next year. it got me so happy that nothing could bring me down.
other than that nothing new to report.
other than that nothing new to report.
Saturday, July 4, 2015
To Amanda with love.
i have been depressed lately. but it has been because i am confined to my bed. soon i will no longer have my wings clipped. i am feeling allot better but i am also feeling that i have let yet another great girl slip through the cracks that is my life. i have not heard from Amanda since i broke my leg 3 weeks ago. she has been periodically been visiting my blog but has not said a word.
Amanda is a Great Girl. she has stuck by my side for almost 10 years. she has waited and waited for me to get over CJ. she even sees something in me that both CJ and Nevada never did. for that i know Amanda is the one i should spend the rest of my life with. however short it may be.
Amanda is a Great Girl. she has stuck by my side for almost 10 years. she has waited and waited for me to get over CJ. she even sees something in me that both CJ and Nevada never did. for that i know Amanda is the one i should spend the rest of my life with. however short it may be.