Curses?

maybe i should of pressured her. it has been a while since i heard from her. and i am not sure if she is still coming here. i do want to see her face to face. all i know is that we are drifting farther and farther apart.  it seems that it is i who initiates the conversations. if we rarely do have them. i would like to have more of them but i know not what to talk about if anything. i thought with CJ out of the picture we would be closer together. but with her out of the picture a curse has been placed on mine and Amanda's relationship. one that i know not how to lift.