Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Should i move on or stay put?

i can visualize a comming disaster that has haunted me ever since i left alberta, and came here to saskatoon, to actualy want this disaster to happen is both selfish and wrong. i admit. but i did not come back to saskatoon just to make sure this does happen. i came back because i knew i was to die here in saskatoon. after surviving the worst moment that ever will take place in saskatoon.

my current job is because i wanted to do somthing that i never thought would happen as long as i stayed in SAC.  but it was because i followed my dream that i got my current job.  but there is somthing pulling me back to SAC. and it is this dream of surviving @ SAC.

i had a dream in late 2005 that i would return to SAC and i would survive a blast that would take place there. if it is a prophetic dream then i know i will have to return to SAC in at least 7 years...i will be doing more at SAC then they will admit i would achive. as in this dream i knew i was doing somthing that they never let me do while i was there the last time.

if i am the only person who has had a dream like this then i know it is not selfish to admit. she was not in this dream.

i thought that this dream was going to take place in 2008 because i went to the first person who had similar claims, and when i found out he was a fraud i started persuing my own dreams.

all of my predictions that came from God has come true. except this one as well as another.

that i would return to saskatoon and survive a nuclear blast that would happen there.

my other dreams where that i would work repairing computers. that i would do it with little pay and that i would become happy with my life.

i came to the conclusion that it never was about me. it was about the sustainer of those dreams.

i also knew that i would not find my soulmate untill 10 years after i got over the first crush i had. the next crush would break my heart just the same way the first one would.

and it only took 7 years to truly get over the first crush. or so i thought. just like the prophicy said. it took 10.

i also knew that the world would not wait for my dreams.

so i tried to speed them up.

without realizeing that i was taking away from my time i had left on this world.

God had other plans for my life. i know it has somthing to do with that other incubus i had. the one i prayed to remember. and still do.

i will not say what that dream was about but i was angery in this dream and i took it out on someone not as close as i would liked to of been before this dream happened and is the cause of my pain.


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