Can i ever forgive CJ?

that is the big question i have. but what is it that she did?  it's not what she did it is what she didn't do.  OK what did she not do? 

if i go into details of what she did not do i will have to say, every thing that goes against the grain of how i wanted a woman to treat me. unfortunately i have this idea that if i ever was treated right by CJ it would become a miracle that did the reverse of how i expected to be treated by her.

it's the miracles that keep me hanging on.  CJ did a few things right. but it is too late for me to pursue her.  but pursuing her is not what i want to do at this time.  at this time i want to forgive her. And move on.

was it her that i saw at the burger king yesterday?  i could not tell but i did not bother to look either.  i know she is married to someone else and that is why i never will talk to her. i never will try even to gaze into her beautiful eyes.  i will treat her like Medusa,  and avoid eye contact.

but can i forgive her?

i just do not know.

i want to. but it is hard to tell her that i do.